Okay - first post. I've started writing a little something many times, but never felt it was actually interesting enough to "publish." I'm boring, but here goes...
I'm going back to work on September 2nd. I've been on maternity leave since the end of April, and I'm looking forward to returning to the office, but of course I'm a little torn... Now that I've been off with the girls, it will be an adjustment to get back on a structured schedule each morning and say goodbye to Mae and Lu when they go to daycare... BUT it's what I've always said I wanted, and have known about myself - that I love/need to work outside the home, even if it's just part time. I'm sure the biggest reason is because going to work is actually easier than staying at home, which truly is the hardest job there is!
It will be good - for everyone. Mae needs to get more socialized - she will get that at Dawn's. She will start preschool lessons there with Dawn's daughter, and she is very excited to learn. Lu needs to learn to like someone other than her mommy - it's important for her to feel comfortable with others. I need to get out of the house and focus on something other than the house each day, just for a little while. It's been four months - it's time.
I used to feel so much guilt about feeling this way, but I've just had to learn this about myself, and give no apologies. I know I am doing what is best for all of us...happier mommies mean happier children and babies.
It will not be easy to get back into the swing of things, nor will I enjoy missing the girls everyday, but it's just our reality for now. We are blessed to have the choice, but for now this is what I've chosen. We'll see how it goes after Labor Day.
On a different note, Chris and I got tickets once again for Dave Matthews Band at the Gorge. We always look forward to this concert, although the tone may be slightly different this year, as they have just lost one of their band members. It will be the first overnight trip away from Lu, but both girls will be staying with my mom, which is like a vacation for them.
See, I said I was boring... Please feel free to write me anytime about anything. I love to visit. Just know that I am a person who, as my dear friend Lana says, "loves being a mom, just not a housewife..."
Loves!
I'm going back to work on September 2nd. I've been on maternity leave since the end of April, and I'm looking forward to returning to the office, but of course I'm a little torn... Now that I've been off with the girls, it will be an adjustment to get back on a structured schedule each morning and say goodbye to Mae and Lu when they go to daycare... BUT it's what I've always said I wanted, and have known about myself - that I love/need to work outside the home, even if it's just part time. I'm sure the biggest reason is because going to work is actually easier than staying at home, which truly is the hardest job there is!
It will be good - for everyone. Mae needs to get more socialized - she will get that at Dawn's. She will start preschool lessons there with Dawn's daughter, and she is very excited to learn. Lu needs to learn to like someone other than her mommy - it's important for her to feel comfortable with others. I need to get out of the house and focus on something other than the house each day, just for a little while. It's been four months - it's time.
I used to feel so much guilt about feeling this way, but I've just had to learn this about myself, and give no apologies. I know I am doing what is best for all of us...happier mommies mean happier children and babies.
It will not be easy to get back into the swing of things, nor will I enjoy missing the girls everyday, but it's just our reality for now. We are blessed to have the choice, but for now this is what I've chosen. We'll see how it goes after Labor Day.
On a different note, Chris and I got tickets once again for Dave Matthews Band at the Gorge. We always look forward to this concert, although the tone may be slightly different this year, as they have just lost one of their band members. It will be the first overnight trip away from Lu, but both girls will be staying with my mom, which is like a vacation for them.
See, I said I was boring... Please feel free to write me anytime about anything. I love to visit. Just know that I am a person who, as my dear friend Lana says, "loves being a mom, just not a housewife..."
Loves!
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