I've spent the last few weeks almost exclusively with the girls -- Chris has been working A LOT, my sister hasn't visited, we've hardly gone to Prineville. This is fine, a little daunting at times without much of a break, but when it's all said and done - I won't have this time with them back once it's gone, right?
So at night when I'm sooo tired, trying to get ready for bed with a little quiet to myself, I get to reflect on the fun, and so easily forget the day's incidents, as those are also behind me. I think about how beautiful Mae's face is, especially first thing in the morning when she smiles with her sweet little dimples on her perfectly smooth skin - she loves to "read" to me, but I have to tell her "what the words say" first! I also try to remember new details of Lu's little face - how she changes so quickly every day, and each expression brings more delight to all of us. She coos "talks" too, which is the sweetest sound I know right now.
I am truly humbled when I think about how God has entrusted these amazing little people to us - to ME (?!)... I work hard for them, feel like a failure at least once a day (at least!), but know He has let us have them, know them, and love them for a reason.
I watched tonight as Mae put on her nightie after her bath, put her small purse over her shoulder, stepped into her favorite high-heeled shoes, and picked up her little baby "Sia" and cradled her in her arms, whispering a little something in her ear... she didn't know I was watching as she carried on, but I savored it.
Being a mommy to these two little girls is one of my favorite things to be.
Loves!
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